part 2 - graduation class of 2005 & dinner

and so, part 2 is finally here...

sleeping randy. words fail me as i try to express how grateful i am that u r here helping me thru. all i can say is thanks. thanks so much.

...i'm really very lazy to properly blog it but here goes... my half-hearted sleepy attempt... let the pics talk for themselves k?

and sorry. sorry for being mendoksey.

date : 18 july 2005
location : northumbria university, city hall, happiness

opening ceremony of convocation 2005... and... guess who's looking pretty funny on stage???


the photos are really dark. i tried my best to brighten them up a bit. so pardon the poor quality.

couldn't stop laughing... *lol*

note : do homework or else rf will poke u with the long sword! *lol*

thoughts : his shoelace is undone!!!


ren & evidence lecturer - michael stockdale; err,dunno, jim gray, dunno, lena, ren, dunno; me & boh; margub, james & may.


jen & azzy (oops! i mean ramachandran); ren & linus; elena, charlton & me; blake & me.


soo hoon, me & laulau; leonne & me; shameena & me.

the following shots were taken in the moot court... SUB 212. the place where almost all our advocacy takes place... where we learn the skills to be a barrister.


may, me, ren, jen & lena; ren, lena, me, may, jen, jian & azzy; ren taking oath & jian starting to ask questions edi... patience!!!; lester, tze chin & ren.

thoughts : i miss j.o.!!!


see what meena got for me???; random shots with meena & deeda... *grins*

note : mortarboard is ugly...


anthony, jian & charlton; jian, jen, me & ren; throwing the ugly mortarboard; we fight the wind... ren, jian, jen, me & azzy.

enuff pics... go home take rest... and it's out for dinner at happiness...

laulau was the organiser... *lol*


the future great barristers & parents; us again without parents; inti-ans; the food...

note : tak sedap. too salty... never never ever again. but thanks laulau!!!



ok now i am sleepy... move! shoo!

---e n d---

coming soon... part 3...

-anger-

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHH!!!




F**K!!!





ALRIGHT THAT DOES IT…

NO MORE NICENESS… (is there such a word?)

…HELLO EVILNESS!!!

WATCH OUT B***H!!!

thank u for being geram on my part. xxx.

part 1 - the one with the parents

small talk : now let's see... where should i start? so many things have happened over the past month and they have all rolled into one big blur. some things i remember so very clearly, while there are others i just don't seem to remember very much. am i suffering from short term memory lost??! oh well... i'll make do with what i remember and what i don't remember, i'll let the pictures do the talking. enjoy the story... or whatever there is...

act 1 : 14 july 2005
i went to manchester to pick my parents' up at the airport. my goodness the journey down was freaky and BORING! freaky in the sense that there might be another bombing... i was taking the train down. and BORING cos it was well, just BORING! imagine 3 and a half hours train ride all alone!!! *yawn*

the train station was huge and for a moment... i felt completely lost and helpless. well, can't blame me.. i haven't been to manchester and everything just felt soo foreign! anyways, after a while of getting used to, i left the train station to roam the city and somehow managed to find chinatown and the city hall! no pics though...

thoughts : manchester is just too busy and big and dirty for my liking. newcastle still rules as no.1.

at the airport...

meena and deeda took ages to come outta the arrival hall. met blake and his family... as well as trevor and sheryl. they were on the same plane as my parents and yet they all came out before my parents. sheeesh....

feelings : kinda worried. wondering whether anything has gone wrong. kinda anxious. kinda happy they're finally here.


meena at the arrival hall at manchester airport; deeda & meena on train to newcastle; meena at park on princes' street, edinburgh; deeda.

act 2 : 15 july 2005
urgh... parents' were awake since 5am! took train to edinburgh... meena feeling kinda below the weather. and edinburgh was freaking cold!!! oops... meena didn't bring a proper warm jacket.


meena & deeda managed to catch the last march of the scotland royal guards... (i think that was what they were called) ... marching to the castle for the very last time as they were being assimilated into... err, forgot into where edi.

went to the castle... tickets cost about £9 per person, if i'm not mistaken. but before that... had to queue for about half an hour just for a security check cos they were afraid of bombs. by the time we got thru the security check it was one o'clock and the one o'clock gun went off like clockwork.


meena in front of monmeg - a huge cannon; meena with a lil' cannon; monmeg's cannon balls; deeda and monmeg


meena and a scotman with bagpipe; meena boxing the mean soldier; deeda at the entrance; deeda fascinated with the long huge sword


meena & deeda were lucky to witness a wedding that was being held at the chapel in the castle. and me and meena got a piccy with the driver of the bridal car!


meena & deeda in front of edinburgh castle; meena & i; random shots in castle

act 3 : 16 july 2005
took meena and deeda to tynemouth... and it was a lovely sunny day! bless the weather.


meena and the priory and castle in the background; the beach; the beachside again; meena & deeda with town in background


deeda was kinda fascinated with the ruins of the priory and the castle


this is the way to the lighthouse; meena; meena & deeda heading towards the lighthouse; meena & deeda watching people fishing


isn't the sky and the sea blue?; one day i wanna go sailing...

act 4 : 17 july 2005
"...and a lotta walking we shall do today"

i think meena woke up today with that thought in her head. we walked soooo much my feet was close to just giving up on carrying me any further. and to think that the past few days meena kept complaining about how much walking we were doing.

went to morrisons. meena kept questioning why i didn't take her to morrisons yesterday instead of tesco. main reason number 1 - morrisons is TOO FAR AWAY from my house. but, meena is crazy over morrisons. she's nuts.

went to jian's place to show my parents' how other houses looked like compared to mine. *grins* mine's the best larr...
then we took bus no.1 back to town and changed onto bus no.100 to metrocentre.


meena & deeda on the double-decker bus; at the square just outside eldon square; meena is fascinated with newcastle's taxis; another taxi company with the weirdest phone number... 444-4444

from metrocentre we went to have lunch at jasmine in chinatown.


deeda & meena & 2 locals in front of the arch; st james' park in the background; i forgot the name of the church; one of the streets in newcastle


meena & deeda at central station; we walked all the way back to gateshead...meena at ellison street; meena became an elephant; meena & fort?

but before reaching gateshead, we went from chinatown to the quayside.


meena & deeda and the swing bridge; the tuxedo princess; tyne bridge; me and the crown court - NO, the court ain't on fire; the sage - never fails to make me think of a caterpillar; millenium bridge

act 5 : 19 july 2005
meena & deeda left for malaysia today. i only sent them to central station where they took the train back down to manchester airport on their own.

thoughts and feelings : i miss them. couldn't stop crying when the train started to pull out of the station. 5 days of them is just too short. wished they stayed longer. there's still so much i want to show them... i miss meena and deeda.

thank u for comforting me that day when meena & deeda left. thank u randy. :)

---end of part 1---

PREVIEW...

...and that's cos i don't know how to make a trailer... *bleh*


and so they march for the very last time...


...in the heat of summer...


...need i say anymore?


...and at dinner that night...


...whatever are they doing???


hey, isn't this familiar?


oOoh...


guess where this was taken?


..this looks so wedding photo-ish...


... urm... ugly...


... monkey see monkey do?

*LOL*

stay tuned...

...until i find my inspiration to blog fully about what's been happening.

actually, there's just too many things happening that i havnt found time to put into words. some things just can't be put into words... so i might just leave them as photos. the photos say it all...

but for the meantime... just HANG ON AND BE PATIENT k!?

just so at least someone knows...

... and that is if anyone cares ...



i'm heading to london today and will be in london until the 30th.

will avoid travelling via the underground but... well, u know.

staying near kings' cross. hey, the safest place would be the most dangerous place right? right???

alrights. i gotta dash. i'm still not done with packing and my train leaves in 2 hrs!!!

hmm, i seem to be blogging onli once every week now. *lol* busy larr...

anyways, i'll be posting on my exploration of manchester and my playing tour guide to my parents as well as CONVO soon. (piccys included!!!)

but for now... this blog shall be my way of paying respects to s u m m e r 's grandpa who passed away a couple of days back.

and i'm sure u'll hav noticed that Windchimes isn't playing any songs. well, it's a moment of silence in memory of s u m m e r 's grandpa. even though i don't think i've ever met him. [>.<]

my dear s u m m e r... i hope u and ur family are alrightys... wish i could be back home with u. but i'm here for u always. remember that k? *huggz*
remind me that i owe u loadsa hugs!!!

limbo...

neither here nor there
or anywhere for that matter...

a state of uncertainty?
indecision?
to be or not to be?
happy or miserable?

***

havn't been blogging in a week now. nothing much, just been busy at work and hanging out with precious frens. i cannot stop being thankful for passing bvc. especially after i saw how i nearly nearly did not pass one of my subjects. amazed at how far i've gotten and how much i've changed in some ways. discovered as well that the subjects i thought i was good in were actually the subjects i was weak in... and that for the subjects that i feared the most, i actually did really well in them! wow.

anyways, back to my week since results were released...

wednesday, hung out with frens at metrocentre. did a lil' shopping but mostly window shopping. BUT i did get a dress... *winks*
caught War of The Worlds there at metrocentre too. omg. for the first time in like ages, i was actually sitting on the 2nd row from the front!!! neck pain...

thurs and fri was spent at work with the elderly and the young. THURS! the london bombings. my goodness. was at work when at noon i got this sms...

Hey Winter are you ok Just saw the news

*lol* silly spring... i didn't have a clue what she was talking about. had to call her and that was how i found out about the bombings in london. silliness. and i nearly didn't get to go home. the metro between gateshead stadium and monument were closed, and the trains were running and stopping for 10 mins at all other stations. but lucky me... got on the metro, waited about 5 mins and then they announced that the security was being lowered so the trains would be running as usual, albeit a lil' delayed.

saturday had a lil' trip to the coast. had a lovely long walk along the beach barefooted. *sigh* i love the beach... the feel of the soft white sand between the toes, the caress of the wind which leaves a salty touch to ur face, the rush u get when u step into the icy cold water... the vastness of the ocean itself. makes me feel so small and insignificant. there's something about the beach which just leaves me feeling both relaxed and exhausted. oh, and also really really hungry! *lol*

a lil' me and u time every now and then isn't bad is it? feels bad sometimes... like neglecting the frens who needs us the most. but i love the me and u time. it's really really fun.

sunday, hung out with frens...

but i don't want to be mendoksey. seriously... am i a lil' mendoksey???

mon and tues, been at work again.

today, been busy getting my preparations done for the arrival of my parents tomoro. settled some stuff, bought groceries, hung out with frens, had pizza buffet (AT LAST!!!), clean room and house, do the laundry... make tiramisu.

speaking of which... i havnt quite completed the last two... so, i shall be off!

going down on the 1008 train to manchester. hanging around the city for about 4hours before heading to the airport to pick my parents up and then returning to newcastle on the 1942 train. hmm.. mixed feelings....

omgomgomg

*heart pounding*
"stoopid rain"


ero jian called to say that results are out and it's NOT EVEN AFTER 12PM!!!


*heart beats faster*
"stoopid rain"


arrives at the steps of sutherland building and is greeted by a really happy marlon. no guesses needed to know he's gotten thru.

*omg i'm so scared!*

enters building and everyone's standing around a notice board. laulau tells me i've passed but i won't believe her.

*omg*

finally builds up courage to look at the board...

...and somehow the first list i had to look at was the VERY COMPETENT list... *siao*



...no name!!! one more list to look at... the COMPETENT list...

*oh pls be there*



*pls pls be there*



AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! IT IS THERE!!! I PASSEEEDDDD!!!

*grins* *sobs* *jump for joy* *hugs everyone i see*

so there it is... all my work not gone to waste. praise the lord!

to erojian... CONGRATULATIONS!!! thanks for being my study partner! seems like the countless times we spent in the library really did pay off eh? though... i was wondering did we really do much cos i seem to remember more chitchatting and coffee breaks and checking out the chun babes than serious quiet study! *grins*

and to lena and ren... WE DID IT!!! thanks soo much for the sudden msn msgs that just say "ganbatte"!!! actually, thanks for being there, well, not really... but at least i knew u guys were always one msn msg away!

and to my fellow budding barristers... WE GOT THRU!!!

omg i'm sooo happppyyyyyy! all my worries are gone now... well, sort of. now to worry about where to work and all... *grins*

pssst... i got pecks on the cheeks today! marlon, priyaduth and tream! my goodness...

oh and btw... to those who didn't think i would make it thru unscathed, I AM SO CHUFFED I PROVED YOU SCEPTICS WRONG!!! *bleeeehhhh*

and on another note, to my frens who didn't get thru, what's done is done and there's no point regretting in what u should have done or should not have done. just remember that we are always here for u. all u need to do is just ask. cos we don't know what else we can do except be here for u when u need us. *huggs*

oh gooood grieeeff

*gasp*


*worried look*


t-tomor-ro i-is t-the da-ay the tr-ruth is reve-ealed.
have i been good enuff to say goodbye to my status of STUDENT for good?

oh notice board please please say yes. please!



-to be continued-

that is of course, if, the results are good...

oh, and to a very good fren... thanks loads and sorry for adding to ur dilemmas. good frens shouldn't be adding more troubles to an already troubled fren... they should be helping and listening. sorry. [>.<]
btw... neither do i want for this frenship we hav to be jeopardised by anything. and i don't wanna hurt anyone else apart from myself. BUT i gotta say this... for awhile, it really felt really right. impulse or hormones. [>.<]


oh, and to all my darling frens waiting for the truth to be revealed tomoro, all the very best to each one of us! and don't worry too much! we hung on for sooo long... we'll do it! see you tomoro in front of notice board after noon!!! and kak eme... MISS YOU!!! don't worry, u'll do fine too!

the weird things...

... i read while at work today.


no.1
I don't know why they left the fly...
IF ONLY the fly on the wall could have made a documentary, what a story it would have told. Instead, the insect sat it out while the brains of a top City accountancy firm spent four hours trying to work out what to do with the pest. At first, a secretary at KPMG e-mailed her 'facilities service department' asking for help in killing it. A terse reply from someone called Susan informed her aerosol fly sprays have been banned on health grounds. She offered to call a cleaning firm, but pointed out the fly would probably be dead before they got there. The secretary - called Victoria - then asked for a fly swat, but none turned up. A colleague, stunned by the tortuous exchange, forwarded it to office magazine PersonnelToday.com.

errrm... well, hmm... why didn't she just opened the window and let the fly fly out? orrr... is it also another rule in the company that windows cannot be opened?


no.2
A sexual high is just the tip of the iceberg - by Sarah Hills
IT CERTAINLY explains a lot about rabbits...
Lettuce is an ancient Viagra which can boost your sexual performance, scientists revealed yesterday. It produces chemicals which act as stimulants and was used by the Egyptians as an aphrodisiac.
The discovery was made by botanist Giorgio Samorini when he solved a riddle which had foiled experts for decades.
Min, the ancient Egyptian god of sexuality, is often depicted in bas reliefs with a vegetable - and nobody knew what or why. But Mr Samorini identified the plant as a bitter-leaved wild lettuce known as Lactuca serriola.
This initially confused him because, since Roman times, the sap produced by lettuce has been thought to dampen sexual desire. Emperor Nero is said to have eaten it to rid him of erotic dreams and Pliny the Elder wrote that lettuce 'can cool sexual appetite as well as a feverish body'.
The Italian botanist carried out tests on the vegetable which revealed that in small amounts the sap does, indeed, have a sedative effect. But in larger doses the substance - which includes a cocaine-like chemical - acts as a sexual stimulant.
'About 1g induces calming and pain-killing effects,' said Mr Samorini, editor of the botanical journal Eleusis. 'At higher doses, 2g to 3g, the stimulating effects prevail.'
He added : 'This finally solves an ethnobotanical riddle and explains the association between Min and lettuce.'

errr, okayys... i just had one-quarter of an iceberg! does that amount to 2g-3g of sap?! urm, i don't wanna be err... 'nuff said.


no.3
NO TICKLING
Ever wondered why you don't laugh when you tickle yourself? It's all down to our need to be ready for the unexpected, research shows.
The brain anticipates trivial sensations, such as your own touch, so it can focus on more important ones, such as a tarantula crawling up your neck. Sensation is less when the brain expects it and 'combining senses with the expected gives a picture of the outside world', researchers at University College London said.

so i don't laugh when i tickle myself... BUT WTH AM I DOING TICKLING MYSELF!?! in fact, why are people tickling themselves?!?!?!


no.4
GERMANY : Women should not play beach volleyball unless they want sagging breasts, a top plastic surgeon warned yesterday. Dr George Khoury said the growing popularity of the sport had led to dozens of women coming to him complaining of the problem.
'Breasts were not made for swinging up and down 300 times within a short period,' added the 39-year-old, from Hamburg. 'Men should also wear tight pants to stop their testicles from sagging.'

urm... so men should wear tight pants but women should not play? hmmmph... gender discrimination??? aiyoh, sagging breasts and testicles are part and parcel of life... isn't it?


no.5
Girl marries dog
A NINE-YEAR-old girl has married a stray dog in front of more than 100 people in India.
The tribal custom is intended to protect the child from evil, reports the Press Trust of India.
Karnamoni Hasda married the street dog in West Bengal state's Hooghly district.
The Santhal tribe believes a child is in grave danger if their first tooth appears on the upper gum.
A canine marriage is said to be the only way of warding off evil. The child can remarry a human after growing up.
The report says Karnamoni's canine marriage did not take place immediately after her first tooth appeared because her father's financial problems did not allow for a wedding at the time.

marry a dog?! err... well, i guess dogs would make a better husband since they are loyal unlike SOME MEN who can be cheating lying husbands. but on the other hand... animal sex?! that's just soooo wrong!!!




sigh... the things i think about while at work. what's up with me?





all news taken from METRO (June 30,2005). there's the online version of the paper too... click HHHEEERRRRREEEE to read more if you want.

here's a lil' something before i zzz...



hmm, i have a bikini too but i'm just tooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo darn shy/scared/ugly/fat to wear it. [>.<]

on the other hand... i was thinking about getting my belly button pierced. should i?

alrightys... short post for today, i need to zzz... work again tomoro... *sigh*

oh no, wait a minute... i get to wear pretty stuff... what am i complaining about?! *lol*

nightzzz.....

story telling attempt no.2

toffee. sticky sweet toffee.

3pm and they were at a mutual friend's place for a dance rehersal. working on dance moves and teaching one another. everyone was working hard as the performance was about 2 weeks away.

5pm and they took a break. she flopped down on the comfy couch. fun as it was, it was also exhausting as they had had a long day. her girlfriends began messing around with the piano, his guyfriends hung around talking about basketball and he sat down beside her. she snuggled into his arms and felt really protected, loved... she wished they could stay like that for eternity. she breathed in his scent... committing it to memory.

someone had brought a bag of sweets and they were passing it around. she picked a toffee outta the bag and unwrapped the brownish-gold wrapping paper. it was a hot day and the toffee had melted slightly. sticky. she popped the toffee into her mouth... not noticing that a bit had fallen unto the collar of her white baby-tee. but he had. he got some tissues and tried to help her remove the toffee but it was no use. she got up and hurried to the kitchen sink as the tee was her favourite and she didn't want it to be stained. she tried washing but it was quite impossible for her to wash it off since she could hardly see her collar. he had followed her into the kitchen and he helped her rid the toffee stain.

***

some noise brought her back to reality. it was a distant memory now but she still remembers it like it was yesterday. everyone who saw them together then said that they were a match made in heaven. "what a laugh" she thought, "they should look at us now. both living different lives". their paths separated a long time ago and she has hardly seen him nor heard from him. she had heard from some friends that he was now in a serious relationship with another girl and they looked great together. she was happy for him but she still missed him. she had dated other guys after him but she did not let them in the way she had him. he was her mr right.

still sucking on the toffee in her mouth, she continued her reading in the library. she did not see him come in and sit down beside her. "excuse me, i think u've got a little something on your collar" he said. she smelt a familiar scent... looked up and he smiled at her whilst offering tissues. "silly little girl, until now and you still can't have toffee without having a little of it fall onto your shirt?" he said whilst helping her get rid of the toffee just like he did a long time ago. "i heard you were back in town and i knew you would be here... i wanted to give you this" he said as he handed to her a card... "my wedding invitation. i hope you would attend. it would mean the world to me."

perhaps we give all of our hearts unconditionally to those who hardly feel the same way in return and that's when we get hurt. we build up walls to hide our hearts to save us from the pain. and that's when we, in turn, hurt the people who gave their hearts to us unconditionally. and the cycle goes on and on...

storytelling attempt no.1

9am and she's awake. as she lay in bed, she thought "it's boy's birthday in a couple of days' time but i'm not going to be around to celebrate it with him. i'm going back tomoro... perhaps i could throw him a surprise birthday party tonight." she smiled as she made her plans. rolling over on her side, she watched as he slept peacefully beside her.

11am and she got up. went to shower and began her plans. he was still fast asleep. she msged his flatmate telling him of her plans and asking him for help. they decided on him asking boy to go up to uni for a game of football but when they looked out of the window, decided to change their plans to a game of badminton instead. it had been raining for the past few days and it was still raining.

2pm and he was getting ready to go up to uni for badminton. it was pouring and she prepared the sole umbrella for him. he needed it more since he was going to be going away on a trip for awhile and should not be catching a cold. as he was about to leave, she asked if he would leave the keys for her so that if the rain stopped she could go out.

4pm and it was still raining. she decided not to wait any longer and she hurried out into the wet and cold dressed in jeans and a hooded jacket. she had not been out in the town on her own before and she was worried that she might not be able to find her destination. and she was right. she ventured up and down the lanes, in and out of alleys... before stumbling upon her destination out of the blue. running into the shop to get out of the rain, she got a look from the shop owner that seemed to say, "stay out". but she didn't care. she headed straight in and she picked out the present and handed it straight to the owner. he looked at her, dripping wet, and told her the price. she said she knows and asked if there was a box that she could put it in. he packed the present up for her with a shocked look on his face but nevertheless gave her a discount when he found out what she was doing.

5pm and she dashed out of the shop and back into the rain. she somewhat figured out her second destination while getting lost in town a second time. unfortunately the shop did not have what she wanted and she wandered around town figuring what she should get instead. when she decided, she hurried into the shop and bought the cake and then she made a mad dash back home as she knew he would be coming back any moment soon. when she got home, she hid the cake and the present in her luggage and changed out of her wet clothes and blow-dried her hair with his hair dryer.

6pm and he arrives home. he asked her if she went out at all and she told him no. he then went to shower and she moved the cake and the present to his flatmate's room. and so the plan was in force. luckily for her, one of his friends had some friends over and so she decided to bring them up to introduce them to everyone after dinner. giving everyone else a perfect excuse to be hanging around the flat.

11pm and she has made several attempts at lighting the lighter to light the candles. no use. the lighter did not work. the flatmates joined in her search for a working lighter and eventually they found one. she lighted the candles and made her way into the kitchen where he was playing bridge with his friends. one of the flatmates flicked the light switch off while the rest began to sing the traditional birthday song. boy was sitting with his back towards the kitchen door and did not turn around to see what was happening. when she placed the cake right smack in front of him, there was a look of shock on his face. when his friends reprimanded him on not turning around, he reasoned that he thought it was one of the other guy's birthday. which was somewhat a good excuse as it was after all a few days before his birthday.

a few days later and he calls her from his trip. his flatmate had just given him the present she got for him. he asked her why she got it and she asked him wasn't it what you've been wanting for so long now? she had saved her money in order to be able to afford the present but that was all that she told him. she did not tell him about her little adventure in the rain and that she was now sick. and until the day when they parted paths, he never knew how and when she got the present and the cake.

daybreak
i'm still awake
one week
and i'm still weak

i can't sleep
an image haunts me...

today at work, an elderly couple stopped by my stall. they were talking and pointing at several of the jewelry on display. she was in a wheelchair and he was beside her. when i went over to see if they needed any help, she said that she was looking for a bracelet with green stones in them. the reason being that today was their emerald wedding anniversary. i found one really lovely bracelet and she tried it on. she looked at him for his approval and he took out £20 to pay for it immediately. she smiled and said thank you and together they left the stall. him pushing her on the wheelchair.

55 years of marriage and i could still feel the love between the two of them. and it felt like a slap in the face. you see, i no longer believe in "happy ever after" endings. all those fairy tales we heard when we were a child mean nothing to me now. they are just lies. there's no such thing as "happy ever after". i stopped believing in it a long time ago. but today, the elderly couple... the image of the two of them leaving my stall... 55 years of marriage and god knows how many years before that of being in love with one another... just made my heart ache. it made me question if there really is a "happy ever after" ending for everyone. and if there is, where's mine? 55 years of marriage! imagine how old they are now... and yet, they still have one another. and so, more questions pop up... will i live to be that old? will i be like them, celebrating my emerald wedding anniversary with my soulmate? will we still be so much in love as they were?

so now their image lingers on inside my head... the questions float by over and over and over and i can hardly sleep. but the main one is...

is there really a "happy ever after"?

but to the elderly couple who stopped by today...
may you have many more years filled with love.

Two souls with but a single thought,
Two hearts that beat as one.
- Friedrich Halm

it's been almost a week since i blogged. been working for 4 days in a row. terribly exhausted. 2 days at metrocentre... and 2 days in washington galleries. a grand total of almost 36 hours of work in 4 days!

i like washington galleries better than metrocentre. it's not as busy as metrocentre and the takings aren't as much... but it is nicer there. besides, the hours are shorter... at metrocentre i work maximum 11 hours a day whereas at washington galleries, maximum hours would be 8 and a half hours a day.

w.g. is nicer too cos i don't really have to worry about itchy fingers... the people there are either too young or too old to actually steal! just the other day at metrocentre, i lost an £8 earrings to itchy fingers. a group of geordie kids came by and not to be discriminative or anything but it's the truth, these kids just can't be trusted. they mess around and i don't have eyes around the whole stall. sheesh... and i have to pay for it... oh well, thank god it's just earrings and not the necklaces that got stolen... otherwise i'll die.

another reason why i like w.g. is becos... the cashpoint is just soo near the stall... no excuse for anyone to say "i don't have any cash on me". *grins* besides, me stall just beside sainsbury and near the entrance, need i say more?

anyways, just sooo tired... i need a goood rest. me aim tomoro, clean my room... go to town for some jogging pants, black working pants, comfortable black shoes... then mebbe gonna go over to jesmond and go jogging. my mum laughed when she heard me say i wanna go jogging. i hope no one else is laughing now... [>.<] oh come on, support me in my attempts to diet and be healthy! my aim, slim down and gain stamina before convocation! sleeepy time... zzzZZZzzz....

the familiar sound of heartbreak echoes all around
the familiar feeling of pain so surreal
when did those protective walls fall down?
now all that is left are ruins on the ground

let it rain
may the raindrops wash away the dirt
let it storm
may the thunder cover the cry of hurt

and so...

i'm in a mood of mixed emotions. it happens especially when i havn't had enough sleep and especially since...

today's the last day of the bvc.


-warning : really emotional stuff below-
afternote : well, not really. but it is emotional to me. so there.


i don't know if i should be happy or i should be sad... a part of me is screaming in joy for the fact that i've gotten thru the whole course. i've "almost" completed this path of my life which i doubted i would perform well in. "almost" because today was the due date of one of the last two assessments i had and results have yet to be released. i'm happy becos soon, i'll be going home home home! and i get to see my dearest summer and spring. oh how i miss u guys so much!!! and omg... i wanna nasi lemak and milo sangat kurang ais!!! but err, minus the 'norman' part k. oooh! and i miss my darrling purple room and my bearbear who was waiting for me on my bed...



...but unfortunately has been discovered by my baby ethan...


his royal cute-ness all grown up...

...who has taken to dragging poor bearbear who's bigger than him around the house! pooor bearbear!

but then again, another part of me is sad that it is the end. learned so much and grew so much from the experience... made new acquaintances and we supported one another thruout this intense course. and now we're parting ways... to different parts of malaysia. going back to the way things were before this course... sort of. in fact, a dear fren has already left us in newcastle... as i'm typing this, she's most probbly in london where she leaves for brunei on wednesday...

dear eme
i'm glad to have known you. although we may not have been close, but we sure did have some fun times together eh? thanks for being u... supportive and so full of advise. take good care of urself... and keep in touch yeah? me wanna know when u gonna be called a mummy! man... if my mum was as hot as u... [>.<] anyways, u know how to find me... H E R E! *grins* leave a msg on chitterchatter or leave a comment whenever, u're free to do so... missing you already babe... *hugs*

darnnit. i'm crying again.

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onto other stuff...

my slippers has gone into retirement edi. 9 june 2005.

was on a mission to accomplish lotsa stuff that day. and my dear 2 year old, cost less than a pound slippers, had to choose to retire. had to collect money from the finance office in uni, had to hand in the professional ethics file, had to reclaim my solicitors' negligence opinion which i handed in 2 months ago, had to print my family plan out, had to go to the bank... and whaddaya know? on my way to uni, my slipper broke. well, i dunno how to describe it best...

so had to drag my feet all the way to the finance office first since i was nearest to it... looking like some pathetic woman who has a broken ankle or something cos it was also on the way to the doctors. an elderly lady passed by and she stopped to ask if i was alright. well, bless her heart. anyways, after completing my first mission, i had to drag my feet all the way to sutherland building where majority of people where there. thank god!

"use staplers!"
"rubberband!"
"what size are u? i'll go buy u a pair now"
u guys are the best~ u know who u are...

but credit so has to go to ren who managed to save the day...


FIXED! with a rubberband!!!

thank u so much ren.

managed to hand in my pro ethics file, reclaim my opinion, print my plan out...

and added more new missions and completed them too!

...went to the library, doodled around... and then, ero bakamono accompanied me to shop for a new pair of slippers! i hate shopping without planning first... and i never know what to get. and true enough, after walking around with a 'fixed' slipper, i did not see anything i really fancy... that and also for the fact that they all cost more than a pound! *lol*

but... i did managed to get these from marks and spencers...


GIANT COOKIES!!!!!

yumminess~

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finally, time to start on my book reading... *nerd* [>.<]



got the book for £3.21 at asda. about 20p CHEAPER than in tesco. *lol*

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moodswinging again... damn...

waterfall of tears

-that night-

happy, loved and protected
the world is a lovely place
my hand in urs and urs in mine
talking and laughing and having fun

the sun begins to rise
the world lights up
everything awakens
and i open my eyes
...gone...

*lol* i'm going crazy... i'm "supposed" to be writing my opinion on solicitors' negligence! look what i'm doing here... blogging nonsense... siaoness!

well, i'm off to bed... night nightz...

stop haunting me...

eyes
dark and mysterious
beautiful and captivating
to people full of laughter and joy
to themselves full of loneliness and sorrow

what have you seen lately?
what do you know?

circuit dinner

date : 26th may 2005
time : 7pm - 3am
location : copthorne hotel, newcastle
actors : northumbria university bvc
dressing : lounge suits

prologue
winter feels overdressed as she boards the metro at 3pm towards the city centre. the weather was purrrfect. winter heads to drill hall where she rushes in to print her opinion and then to northumberland building where she has her pro.neg. class with a.h. at 3.30pm. and winter WAS the overdressed student in class! apparently, everyone else brought a change of clothing...

after class, winter follows leonne to her apartment to hang out and waste time as she has to meet azzy and jian only at 6++pm. winter gets to watch TV (!!!) and enjoy a homebaked fruitcake and gets to meet a new fren, alex, who arrived close to 6pm at leonne's place. not long after, jian gives winter several miss-calls and winter hurries towards drill hall where she meets azzy and jian, as well as auzaini, james and melissa. and then the group proceeded slowly towards the quayside as ALL do not know the way to copthorne hotel BUT winter knows that it is near the metro tracks by the river tyne. *grins*

scene 1 : by the river tyne


gorgeousness!!!

oh, and i really cannot refrain from posting these... *evil grin*


see? i really am taller than jian!!! [>.<]

okok... being fair, SEE?! *ehehehe*

gee, i'm mean...

anyways, digressing...

quite a lotta people were already at the hotel... and mostly were having small talk as well as taking pictures. waiters were going around serving lil' tit-bits (chicken bites in curry sauce *swt*) and drinks.

oooooh! a reporter from the times took our pics too!!! wonder if it came out in the papers... [>.<]

clockwise l-r : the guys - jian, azzy, james, auzaini; posers... ; us - ren, omi, me ; combo - jian, ren, omi, james, joo, me.

oooh! tutors and lecturers were there too... PICCYS!!! *grins*


clockwise l-r : lesley munshi - crim.lit. tutor; chris rogers and andrew hutchinson - err, cropped this pic from a random photo of the people; deveral capps - remedies, plr tutor; ross fletcher - err, looks a bit like wax statue eh? [>.<]; stewart fairhurst - my llb evidence tutor; michael stockdale - evidence lecturer; chris rose - crim.lit. lecturer & personal tutor, *eeeeee* [^.^]

oh gosh... *blush* chris rose is SOOO tall!!! me and jian no fight!!! [>.<] eeeeeeee!!!

and piccys of coursemates...

clockwise l-r : ren, omi, anne, me; tream (?) and omi; omi, peter's wife, peter, me, eme; leonne and me.


clockwise l-r : andrew and me; the happy guy - pracha, ren, may,marlon, me, eme; ren and alex; me and orla.

scene 2 : inside copthorne hotel
everyone finds their seating and winter discovers that she's seated on table 9 with the wall on her right and orla on her left. next to orla was azzy and directly opposite her was a.h. the seating arrangement was soooo packed, some felt as though they were sardines in a can of sardine!

anyways, dinner begins with an extremely short prayer and a starter of a dish of err... fruits and lemon sorbet?! it was sweet and sour. red and white wine was served too. the next dish was spring chicken stuffed with goat's cheese with potatoes and the like. not too bad... not too bad... and for dessert, we were given apple crumble (?) and ice cream. coffee was served thereafter and followed by port, which winter decides to try. azzy said it tastes sweet and better than red/white wine and that once one tastes it, one will not put it down. err, sorry... winter still don't think it tastes nice. BUT, after a few sips of port... really tiny sips!!!, winter feels her face turning red... *eeeps*.

after a toast to the queen, several speeches were made and during the first speech, orla's phone went off but she wasn't at the table. so winter instantly grabs the phone and cancels the call but not before getting a dirty look. innocent!!! during the second speech, another phone went off... and this time, it was the phone of the first speaker!!! *lol* and it went off TWICE!!! after the speeches, the lights were dimmed and colorful lights came on... DISCO TIME!!!


random photos of the disco AND me holding up my glass of port!!!

scene 3
a raffle was held and there was only one prize... several names were called but no one came to claim the prize... during which ren kept repeating her name... hoping to be called...

"ren ren ren ren"

... and ...

true enough, her name was called!!!

ren won...

... a HUGE bottle of CHAMPAGNE!!! *lol*


l-r : the grand prize; ren and her win!

the dancing continued... and the chattering carried on...

when suddenly...

all eyes were turned onto the dance floor...


eh? who's that dancing with orla???

revelation...

TUTOR!!! [=.="]

'nuff said.

scene 4
it was almost 1am and all were waiting for taxis to proceed to anne's house for her party...

but before that... more piccys!!!


clockwise l-r : "yeapz, me cut me hair"; may, ren, me and eme; eme, jian, may, omi, azzy, me and ren; ren, may, me and err... who's lips are those??!!! [^.-]

the taxis arrive and most of us went to anne's house for awhile... we left by about 2.30am....

what a night... it was fun... it was full of shocking revelations... but it was fun nonetheless! and the amount of kisses... *ehehee*

do u remember?