Monday, May 16, 2005

lemme ask one question...

how many of u was NOT shocked when u found out i was doing law?

no, seriously. tell me...
how many of u?

hmm... i'm guessing NONE. i'm betting ALL of u either laughed till u fell off ur chair and/or thought "WHAT!?! YOU!?! AHAHAHAHA!!! DO NOT KID ME!!!".

i don't blame u... sometimes when i sit down and think about what next, i just shock myself... i mean, seriously... look back at my primary school report cards and u'll see for 6 years, my 3 ambitions, NOT ONE ever stated "PEGUAM" (that's lawyer in malay). NOT ONE. even throughout secondary school... NEVER once did i ever consider LAW as an option. emphasis on NEVER!

hello!? i was never the one for public speaking... much less standing up in class and making a presentation. back in std 5 when i was prefect, (yes, i was a prefect!) i did my ultimate best to avoid having to go to the front of the ENTIRE school and raise the flag during assembly. even if it meant that the whole school could only see my BACK. i avoided debates, public speaking... anything that meant that i had to be in front of an audience who would watch/listen to me only. i hate being in the spotlight. i still do...

fast forward to the time just after spm when it was decision time... continue to rebel and insist on pursuing my dreams (which would just mean having to marry a rich old man so that he would pay for my studies) or abandoning my dreams and choose between either accounting or law. needless to say i chose the latter of both choices... why didn't i pick accounting? i mean, i was really good at maths... seriously, i was
G O O D. but somewhere along f4/f5... i hated accounts. so, acca was out. and i chose law... i wonder what on earth i was thinking when i made that decision... oh.

but then again, i scraped thru a-levels, earned my llb(hons) degree... and here i am suffering but am still alive doing the bvc... why didn't i marry a rich old man?

i mean, if i'm not meant to be in this line... i would have failed and dropped out a long time ago right? i guess one can do anything if u really put ur mind to it... sure, there are times when i just want to lift the white flag and just give up. and believe me, of late, it is the one thing i really want to do... but then, i think about the challenges i've been thru, all the hardship and all the sweat and the tears... and i tell myself, "just a lil' bit more and it'll all be over... i need to prove that i am capable of doing this! i'm going to make the people who doubted me, regret for ever doubting me. i will. i'm going to make it and prove them wrong." and i shall... no, i will. and now i'm going back to studying for civil. i've just talked myself outta quitting again. [>.<]

so, seriously, i wanna know... how many of you seriously doubted that i would get this far?

u once said to go to u when i need u. i need u. where are u?

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Silly cow, never doubted it for a minute (only for 'bout 58 seconds, really). Now go finish up there and grad so you can find something to sue the disbelievers over! :P

There's good money to be made! Not to mention if at some point during your career you're called upon to defend a rich man legally... you can have your cake and eat it too! :P

Anonymous said...

wei winter....hello!! u are one of the most intelligent being i ever met ok! come on! *koks winter*

u think its tough? there might be some poor souls who :
a) already sign up to be placed in woodbridge/tampoi! (what u call it in ur place anyway..);
b) who resort to drinking "ASH ice-blended whitebook" topped up with whip cream and cherries....
c) both the above...

so,FOCUS in being urself!

and damn it, since we already came this far, grit ur teeth and FIGHT till the end!!! ARGHHH! BITE whoever is in our way. *RARFFT RAFFFT* rfrfrfrf *winks* hehehehe...

wah.. think i TER-motivated myself instead... ahahaha.. better ciao now. :P

btw dinghy, *weak grins* winter had graduated last sumemr d. :P

lucks hun!~ muacks

Anonymous said...

Err... crap... i already knew that! I didn't forget, dil! I swear! :P I don't get it though. If you're all done, what's everyone still doing there?

~ w i n t e r ~ said...

adrian, we got our llb(hons) edii... we're just doing the bvc... bar vocational course... ermz, similar to that of the clp back home but tougher!!! :p

ren, what's err... "woodbridge/tampoi"???